Today at work Karly was about to ask me to hand her something from a shelf, but decided not to tell me which thing she wanted or make any obviouse direction when she asked... I thought nothing of it when she said "hand me that" and picked up the correct object. She told me she wanted to see if i'd know what she wanted even thougth there was no reason but psi that i could've known. It wasn't a familer product or anything...

Sunday in church.... i looked over to see a little girl siting a few pews back. From the angle i was looking she was mostly blocked by my friend all i could see was her from like the shoulders/chest up... when i looked at her, i felt a pain in the base of me... the place they say the first chakra located... like the bottom of my spine i guess.... it's like the feeling i get when i go down a hill or like the rollercoster feeling people get in there stomachs i always get it down there... but this was like a pain. I looked back at her and noticed her Leg was gone.... it had been amputated a few months ago... I'm not sure what i felt but it was a wierd experience...

A few days ago at work... something was bothering Ann, i thought maybe it was her client, but i thougt for a second and tried to sense what it was, then i thougth about what Vivianna had said a few minutes before... and saw a whole seen of Ann talking about it with Krystal... or what might have been Ann's plans to talk to Krystal... anyway, i could've just been my reasoning to figure out what was wrong but.... I kept looking at Ann, thinking that i wanted her to know i understood... i wanted to say "are you okay".... Well, later that day... she told me that the way i was looking at her like "what's wrong" made her cry... right after i walked away she said tears started rolling out... and she asked if i said "Are you Okay?... she said she wasn't sure if i really said it or... .... I was like "nope... i didn't say it but i was thinking..." She's like "stop getting in my head" haha.... Earlier she asked me "have you seen that movie... um.. uh... " and answered back with the title and said know i hadn't seen it... her eyes all wide she's like "Stop doing that!"

Light Poles and Shields

A few days ago at the park i was jogging... it was early morning still dark. as i passed under a light..... like a street lamp type of light and it went out.... i thought hmm maybe they're on timers or something.. but .. little later i two in a row went off when i went under them.... I've seen a tv program about peopel that this happens to.. and my mom says it has happened to my dad.... pretty cool but when i tried to do it at will, it didn't work...

I was with Karly tonight... and lately i haven't been seeing as many things from her... if you've read the previous posts you probly know that for a while it was happening alot... well she told me tonight that she's been visualizing a big bullet proof, sound proof, everthing proof, metal wall around her before we hang out, just about every time, for the last three weeks or so.... I guess it was working pretty well until tonight... i was trying to create a psi link w/ her earlier in the night, and later we had a few psionic moments .... that's what brought up the shield conversation....... just shows how easy it can be to make a shield even if your new at psi.

Clairadience and Auras

The other night i was playing telepathy games with my little sister like: guess the fruit, color ect. and whe was getting what i was sending but i wasn't getting them right... so i thought about how she is more audient than visionary and i listened i could here her saying bannana....
At church last sunday night i was looking at auras and i wasn't seeing much more than etheric.. but i was looking at the wall past my mom and i noticed a golden warm aura shifting between gold and orange... i read that gold could be clear focus or psychic ability, and orange is maturnal.... then i noticed my grandparents with an aura that was kindof around them both, and there were flowing lines from there foreheads and throats... maybe chakra connections... i don't know...

look with your eyes closed....

If you've read the previous posts you know, I've realized that my psi ability is naturally stronger in the category of psychic seeing. As opposed to to feeling like I had convinced myself previously... Tonight I was in Walmart w/ Carla and I went to the bathroom.... Well I started to but they were cleaning it.... So I went back to find her and she had gone to look at something. So I tried to feel where she could be... This should work because often we feel each other arrive at our houses. Or know it's the other one on the phone... But I just can't ever seem to find her in a store by feeling... So I thought "stop trying to feel, just see" so I shifted my focus to my psychic vision and saw a flash of her looking at sheets and talking on the phone... And I knew right the direction to walk and even knew the person on the other end was my mom... So I walk right over and verify that I was right. If you figure out the most natural way to use psi for you then you'll do much better much easier. I still plan to improve all areas. But when using psi for practical things sometimes it's best to stick with the easiest/best way.

The other day Karly was sitting on the couch with me and I got the feeling she was thinking about me... So I looked at her I tried to see what she was thinking... And I saw a little panel of energy in front of her between us... She doesn't really know psi... I asked her what she was thinking about and she laughed so I was like "you're blocking me! I can see it. I see the energy..." I explained that she created a natural shield just by trying to keep me from knowing what she was thinking... Which she admitted that she was consciously trying to "keep me out" of that thought. I was cool to see the field she created, the more I let myself the more I see.

obe

Wow, last night I set out to have an out of body experience. I thought I'd had one once before... I felt my mind out of my body out side the room I was in and brought a friend along who said she felt it too.... But that was nothing like this.. Last night I was reading about them again on blogs, and articles and on Peebrains seminar I noticed how much stress was put on being passive... I know that being gentle and not trying too hard is key with psi... So I wanted to try last night because of how psi charged I felt. I had a good feeling about it. So I'm in bed letting myself go into the right state... Letting things float through my mind and trying to quieten it... I Did start to here buzzing/whispers just like the article says.... And I don't know how exactly it happened but I was just out! I couldn't see and it was only for a second. When I got excited of course I snapped back in, but I tried to stay calm and go back.. But I didn't... Instead I got all the stuff that they say can happen right before an obe.... The buzzing in my body... And I saw lights it's hard to put into words.... The who thing is hard to put into words but I can say, that there is no doubt I'm on the right track... This was defiantly like nothing I've ever experienced.... I couldn't see, as soon as I thought about it like I said I got crazy and snapped back, but before that I remember how awesome it was free turning moving... It was like I didn't think about moving and then decide to do it... My thoughts and actions were one... I don't know, I'm excited to try more now.... I know it won't always be that easy and there will probly be times it wont' happen or I'll fall asleep but Wow. It's worth the practice/patience to any of you who are interested at all!

just swiched to blogger..

ok i switched to blogger from xanga because it is more customizable, and you guys can comment without signing up for anything. So here is all the old posts as one big one.....

Saturday, December 17, 2005
Tonight i was expanding my awareness, i could easily feel it up above me and i started to feel a charge or a tingle.. around my whole body and stronger on my hands and head.. this is normal for me when i'm opened up to surrounding energy... sometimes i also see energy waves and shapes around... but if i try to hard then i mess it all up... but tonight.. i was feeling pretty charged, and i was just passively observing the shapes and hints of colour... i was watching my sisters aura as she talked to me before bed... then i thought i could see out in front of me my surrounding energy field which i'm not sure i've noticed before.... tried to see it but it's so easy to try to hard... so i decided to put a psi ball in my hand and see if i could see that too. i sometimes see the energy especially from my finger tips but not usually colours... (i'm talking about seeing as in mentally/third eye/auric not with your eyes kinda seeing) i decided to make a red one wich isn't a commonly used colour for me when working with energy.. but after a second i saw it.... I was being sure not to visualize to much because if i try to see something i usually do... and i know it's just a vivid projection of my imagination... but it's different to see it as in observe it without imagining an image.... i was looking in the mirror and it was faint but obvious.. so i looked into my hands w/o the mirror and i didn't see... but after consciously but gently looking with my "auric sight" i could see it again. This may not sound exciting but for me it encourages me to keep devoloping my visual psi senses.. After a long time thinking i was more empathy and feeling, i realized that i See alot more... so now i need to work on developing the area that is more natural (still working on other stuff to)
Yesterday, i thought i saw a friend passing by the window at work... i got up to see him and the guy looked nothing like him. Two minutes later, the friend walks in. That doesn't sound too exciting but, i do it alot... so i'm thinking that when i feel the presence of someone around instead of possessing it as a pr essence my visual mind shows me. Maybe my subcon knows they're there and i'm looking for them w/o realizing it... like when you're waiting for someone and every car that drives up seems to be them..

Tuesday, December 13, 2005
Today at work some coworkers were talking and laughing while Ann was cutting hair... and i felt her unpleasent energy... i told them to watch what they were saying for Ann's sake.. and one of them pointed out that they hadn't said anything offensive... Still i was sure i was right even though Ann wasn't really showing any obvious signs of irritaion... a little later Ann and i were in the office eating lunch and she started to complain about the way they were acting... "having to much fun... no very professional".. my empathy was confirmed... Ann and I seem to conect pretty easily. I can pick up things from my clients pretty easily sometimes... but certain people are much easier...
Two days ago my family was about to watch a dvd. they put it in and it wouldn't come on. They tried a second time and it still wouldn't play, it would say reading and would eject. I took into my room and i came on, so i knew it wasn't defective.... I took it back into the family room and said "let me do it" implying that i can always make things work... i can't but confidence is good right? ;) So i pop it in and put my hand over it to run energy into the machine with the intent of playing.... and visualize it playing... my younger sister, who's 10, saw what i was doing and joined in, "let me help".... i think sometimes it's a game for her... but i know she does have some clairaudient(spl) and she's pretty intuative... it came right on. The next day. She wanted to watch the same movie and it wouldn't play again (this dvd player doesn't usualy act this way) so she said "let's do it again".. and we did.. and it came right on. She gave me a high five and said "i wonder if it's you or me."
Some time last week Mom told me she had a gift idea for my little sister for Christmas. Hearing this my sister, Leah, was jumping up saying "what?! what is it?!" so Mom took a sticky note and wrote "crocs or an off brand" meaning Croc Shoes. Leah asked what store and we said we couldn't tell.. then i told mom i'd get with her later about the "specifications" being careful not to say size as not to hint. As soon as i said that Leah exclaimed "Shoes!, it's shoes!" Mom looked a bit shocked, then said "your dam telepathy." ha ha.. we joked that if she guessed she couldn't have the gift. I asked her how she knew they were shoes and she said it was clear because we couldn't tell her what store and i asked for specifications... i think she must have been "hearing between the lines" because that doesn't seem obvious to me.


Saturday, December 10, 2005
Today at work... I had an appointment scheduled to come in and I had a felling he wasn't coming... odd cos he always shows up right on time... and a few minutes before his appointment his girlfriend called to tell me he forgot.
And the thing with karly happened the other night on the phone again.. this time i accurately descirbed 7 or 8 thoughts.. with surroundings and colours... not thoughts she was "sending" on purpose.. i saw these when she was supposed to be listening to my ramble about w/e. lol.... I've decided that she has a strong/loud presence... and that could be why its so much easier for me to get vivid visuals... but it's awesome for me cos, i can practice recognizing other's thoughts... what i mean is i can practice listening and knowing what's mine and what isn't...
Christmas.... the Christmas before last... when i live with Carla (great friend with a great connection with me) i got a flash of the colour of one of my gifts from her and where it was hidden... and i was right... then when we were opening gifts i got the urge to show off... and grabbed up one of my boxes and said "gray with some red". which it was a pull over in those very colours.... i guess last year i wasn't doing as well... maybe no practice, i don't know... This year. I got an image of one gift from my sister. and verified that i'm right through a friend... and today i was going to buy a shirt from Gap and when i picked it up. i "knew" my sister already bought it for me for Christmas... but i'll have to wait and see if i'm right on that one!


Saturday, November 26, 2005
ok. so i should have been updating this... cos i'm doing really good...
a few days ago at work Ann was like " this lady wants her bangs and ears shorter... who is it.." i was like "it's the pregnant lady with light red hair.".... the i'm all "i don't know why i said that..." well it's cos it was her!.... also before that... casey was talking... and a couple of times... i knew what she ment before she said it... she was like " that one shampoo i use"... i was like "fasionista"... and she's all... i don'tknow it's for color.. from catwalk.. and at work this lady was like" my grandauter works at... um... that place.. um..." and i'm thinking.. Bath and body works?" then she goes.. it's near bath and bodyworks... !! so i wasn't right about where she works but maybe i heard her thinking that..... hmmmmm..
ok and the last few days with karly... i have been seeing pretty clearly what she's thinking.. especially about me.. like sexual things.. and i'm like "i saw that!" and she even tries to play it off sometimes.... i got one thing when i was walking in front of her.. no chance of picking up on body language.... and i saw a quck glimpse of a fantasy.. and i was like what?? what was that? she's all huh??? but i mentioned it again later.. with details that were accurate. and tonight.... she was like what's this new aim triton... she downloaded it.. and i could see it a little... not totally clear though... and i was like is it blue? and ect... and she was like yeah, yeah,.... seriously the last few days... atleast 15 times.. psi stuff.. totally acurate with me and her... she was even like" what flavor was your toothpaste" and i told her it was cinomen.... and she was like"i could tast cinomen toothpaste in my mouth" !!
at work tonight.. this guy came in asking how michelle was..... and i was like in my head of course "don't ask about the woman you had an afair with ... your wife is here." so then i was like... hmmmm am i right??? i was waiting to ask ann. and he said somthing about the station.. and i was like Yup! cos i knew she'd had an afair with a radio dj.. so i verified that it was him when he left.... cool.. there's more but i can't think of it all.... gotta keep doing awsome.. just keep listening/watching being open.... oh yeah, i'm going semi organic too... maybe that will help!


Thursday, November 10, 2005
to night i was at books a million and kristy called... and said she would meet me up there, i hadn't hung out with her in forever. so... i was sitting looking at a book... and i got a feeling she was there... so i stood up to look and i senced that she had walked right by... on gone towards the back of the store. then my phone rang... and i missed it it was her... she must have hung up and decided to use her "sixth sence" .. . she said that she was trying that ... to find me... when i saw her... well.. she had walked by to go back to trade secret.. since she didn't see me right off the bat.. iwonder if i didn't sencer her there untill she tried to use her psi???? cool though...
later at home i was online.. talking to carla... she told me this morning when she called at 7;30... i didn't answer... she said she sent me a psi message to call her back at 8:30.. so she could go back to sleep.... after hitting the snooze i don't know how many times... i did wake up and call her ... on line she was like wow you called at 8:31. obviously her psi message went straigt to my subcon..,. and affected me without me even realizing it was psi.... she was like "we are so linked" Awesome!!!

Tuesday, November 08, 2005
i forgot... this one is small.... but the other day i was like "blah blah chicken poc scar"... Ann was chewing food and i looked at her and said "it's not character, it's Ugly"... her face was like woah.... you read my mind... how did you do that?... I'm all i give you the website so you can learn it to...(meaning psipog.net)
also the last few days there has been a couple of times i felt sensitive to the psi all around me... slightly disconnected from the tangible world.... arround the same time as the 'hearing leah's voice' thing.... and i just try to float in it and see what comes... or look at the energy around me... very cool... learning not to try so hard. that's the key.


Monday, November 07, 2005
ok, here's some psi login':
starting about a few weeks ago 2 or 3 i've been noticing psi stuff.. more exciting/obviouse stuff... i had a dream about Granny and Grandaddy getting a new toilet seat... and the next morning i mentioned it to Mom, and she was like "you saw that over there, didn't you..." I was like What? so ok... i could've seen it and i don't remember.. but Then! the next day or two... I had a dream that Carla gave me a face care kit from Arbon... we hadn't talked about arbon for a while. like it was a couple of months ago when we learned about it... in the dream the kit was orange and it was for men.... that morning on the phone with Carla whe was like "my mom has an arbon kit in her bathroom..." and i stopped her to tell her the details of my dream... and she was like yeah! it's orange in a little bag but it's not for men... but it does say MIN for minerals!! Cool! that's definitely a psi dream.. so i can't spell... but really they always say you can't really read in dreams...also around the same time those few days... Crystal started to tell a story and i got a flash in my mind of a man with a Baby on his penis Sick! why would that even cross my mind - crystal goes -i don't know if i sould even tell this it's a horrible story - but i'm like no tell it , i had to see if my thought had anything to do with this. then she tells this story (wich i hope isn't tru) about a man getting his penis stuck in a dead baby.. bleh... but yeah! a visual psi flash...
later, Leah came into my room and flipped of the light and said she wanted to show me something... and i got this vision of her with flashing lights and stuff.. the she pulled a mini discoball flash light thing out from behind her back and flipped it on. cool
also lately i've been able to see what i think is the etheric aura pretty easily... i even descibed tiffany and karly's at work one day and again a few days later... today in church i was looking at auras and i could see gene's while he played the piano... when i looked a way. i noticed a blueish beem from his face to the keys... then i tried to focus on it and i could still see it... maybe his attention.. looking at what he was doing... i could see his aura change with different parts of the "song"....what he was playing... durring the preaching... i heard karly's sell phone ring in my head... then like 2 min. later someones cell did go off.. hmmmm...
when i got home i was taking a pooh, and i heard leah in my head "Neal's home." the i thought i better call her at granny's house to let her know i came home. rigtht when i got out of the bathroom the phone rang... it was her.. when she got over here i told her what i heard and she was like "you heard me?" i clarified that i ment in my head and she was like your scary... i said that exactly... it's cool cos i didn't even know she was driving up and saw my car and said that... i thought she was already at granny's...psi! definitely!